Without getting too involved in the details, I will openly admit that I have been very distracted for the last few months. Unfortunately, I have not followed my own advice and have allowed a soul-sucking, poorly managed business drain my emotional and intellectual resources, leaving me little energy for anything of real value to myself or anyone else. I've neglected this blog, as I have neglected other satisfying personal pursuits.
It's a lot like being in a drunken stupor. You drink until you're in a confused haze and only sober up enough to open another bottle. You know coming out of it is going to involve an excruciating headache and probably some nausea (if you're lucky, just nausea). So, for awhile it's easier to stay inebriated.
Fortunately, I finally stopped drinking that swill, tossed out the bottle and braced myself for the hangover. Although it's been a rough couple of months, by tapping into some well maintained relationships, I've been able to navigate a transition into a position with more focus and more flexibility, and the opportunity to pursue my actual interests. While I still have a bit of a haul until I'm "living the dream," it's a measurable step in the right direction.
Sitting here in the southern California sun, working at something that at least has some social and environmental value, I have a positive feeling I haven't had in awhile. I'm still dealing with an organization that's a bit fractured and dysfunctional. However, I at least have the satisfaction of working with a leadership team that seeks input and is willing and able to make positive changes.
We'll see where this goes over the next few months. But, I am determined to stay on the wagon and focused on my goals.
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